onto day #4

this is gonna be quick 

I woke up late, have to put my food together (it's already all tracked) 

and do the treadmill 

so down and dirty

love to add this to a meal  

calories aren't too bad  

yogurt

I didn't tease them, they got a treat  

I love this company  

the smartcake's are amazing! 

viola! ham ans cheese 

breakfast  

may have had two 😉

been adding this to my water, so good  

1/4 a rice bowl, unlimited veggies and a veggie burger 

and with that peanut sauce

gotta run 

its the weirdest thing

I don't have any fun snappy pictures today 

I will take some today 

what I do have is a weird all of a sudden SHIFT 

Like something in me flipped 

I was watching an Instagram gal I follow and she talked about goals 

and breaking them down into manageable goals 

big goal → final destination 

clothing goal/ or could be a pamper myself goal 🤷...this one not sure if she said or I added this 

Then she talked about those changing numbers goals → you know 170-160-150-140-130 

then she broke it down more into the skinny side of the numbers... like going from 160 to 150 make it a goal to get to 165! so you can be on the "skinny side" 

this really for some reason struck me ... this is under her "my story" 

so I was thinking yesterday ... I just need to get to the "skinny side" of the 160's ... Karla don't fret about the whole picture just focus on that and I breezed through the day... that and I ate like every 2-3 hours 

Love me some old Weight Watchers points plan 

so this morning I'll hit the treadmill for 20 minutes, maybe start the ab circuit (was thinking of adding that in a few times a week) 

for now at least the gym is a No No 

I hit it too hard last week and my shoulder is messed up 

so I am laying low..... my body is reminding me of my age (dumb body!!!) 

but my mind is like nah ... you're good girl ... GO!!!! 

so shoulder pain won! Its just walking for now 

so back to the shifted mind topic 

I looked back in 2010 and it took me 6 months to get to goal from here! 

6 FREAKIN months 

so chill out girly girl! 

relax and chill 

you're gonna be on this journey for a bit 

and it's okay 

click 

light switch moment 

(for now) 

always needing that disclaimer hahahahaah 

cause for the most part I am a hot mess 

but for TODAY.... 

food is planned, tracked and soon to be packed 

then I will journal, do some art for like an hour

treadmill... then off to work 

all my spare time is morning time 

after work I am like a zombie and ready for bed 

so tootles my peeperoos 

see y'all tomorrow 

yes I am back again today

wowsa 2 days in a row!!! shocker 😂

coffee... this is/has been a mess 

unsweetened almond milk? 

coffee mate? 

SF coffee mat? 

half and half? 

HWC? 

so over all this indecision... it's exhausting  

so since I am (maybe) back to bloggins meet my new babies! 

Milo (girl, left) and Otis (boy, right) 

brother and sister born 12/1/18

absolute light of my life 💕

 went out to breakfast, egg whites with onions and mushrooms, 

tomatoes not hash browns, plain wheat toast 

water, water and more water also  

snack yum  

lunch some kind of low carb 50 calorie tortilla

 velveeta, ham, pickle and rice cake "chips"  

 blackberries, sweetener and FF cool whip 

pudgy face, 15 calorie popsicle  

 veggies, marg and parm cheese 

I am a HUGE journaler, this is my fitness journal... 

I will be (I am sure) posting a lot about this  

 this morning's entry 

and the plan for today 

yah know... some thoughts here:   this may not be the "perfect clean food" and I hesitated to post for fear of imagined? judgement but yah know... phooey... I am doing what works for me... first goal... skinny side of 160's (under 165) long term goal ... 139 by 12/31/19... in looking at 2010 it took me 6-7 months to go from 166 to 139 so.... hunker down Karla and enjoy the ride 😂 ... my shoulder bothers me when I do upper body and last week doing pushups almost got me to go to Kaiser for pain shooting down my arm... so hello again treadmill 

not perfect? but perfectly imperfect 

tootles 

love 💗 peace ☮ 

getting fat that's where!!

You know how a blogger disappears and you wonder.... where did they go? 

and you wonder.... did they gain their weight back? 

well... to end the suspense ... yes I am a fatty now 

so let's recap...

→ weight watchers on my own... big winner
→ calorie counting ... became obsessed.. got way way thin and couldn't sustain it
→ started the shake system.... did good and lost the weight, but dang I don't want to live like this forever
→ joined weight watchers online, and in store (as in go to the meetings) nah fail on this too many reasons to list
→ tried to replicate taking pictures like beginning... didn't stick to it
→ spend a ZILLION on trainers, coaches and systems... worked for a time... but dang this can break the bank
→ bought other proteins and joined every facebook accountability group in existence to try and replicate above mentioned coaching and nah
→ threw it all to the wind and this has been a big ole stinking turd!

so here I sit this morning 

I started this blog at 200 got to as low as 136

up to 181

down to 148

back now at 166

I am not doing so great and a gal mentioned to me the other day, she missed my blogs 

so here I am 

what's the answer to this weight dilemma? 

keto? low carb? WWers? Shake system? a mix of all? nothing? everything? 

a rubber room? 

I know the goal... this ↓

so let's try an old approach 🤔

pictures of my food ... just TODAY and see how it goes.... 

at this point I am not making any grand plan and look like an idiot

so let's recap 

166.8 ... this is B.A.D 

today will be picture day 

and let's see where this blog takes me... 

maybe it will save me (again) 

or maybe it won't (again) 

let's see where this goes..... 

tootles and see ya tomorrow with some pictures and a new (hopefully) smaller number 

Okay this is embarrassing ... oh and love me some Tyra

First let's recap yesterday 

ah win 

so far this week I have used 4.6 of my weeklies 

coolio 

Today is day #1 of my vacation 

brunch with the Fam ... which will be a snap 

as my EVER healthy daughter is hosting 

and now for the embarrassing part of this post

yes I am 59 (ancient to some of y'all)

I made this graph this morning

and put it in my closet so only I would see it
ahh
that's why I am blogging about it for the planet to see it

ahhhh

oops

I think I must be a kindergarten teacher in my soul

but seeing the goal
seeing the progress
seeing it daily
I am counting on this to help
on my Birthday
135

that's the end game
back in the happy zone

Tony Robbins is Thursday
I am Youtubing up like crazy







I got this
but the beauty?
I only have to worry about today
we only have today
tomorrow isn't even promised
So I am EXCITED to see the whole fam today

stay on track and I will be reporting back here tomorrow along with all da food pixs
😊😊😊😊

tootles me noodles 

The roaring banana

hollar 

howdy doody 

I did GREAT yesterday! 

the only thing different was one extra Fiber One brownies 

zero hunger 

and I was a rabbit nibbling all day 

so this is today's plan 

I took the Trader Joe's salad kit and chopped it up more 

and threw away some of the packages 

only used what you can see (that I didn't cover with my hand) 

added chicken and my own dressing 

I loved this soup 

man oh man was this a blast from the past 

I hadn't had it since 2011! 

sandwich with pickle 

snack will be two egg whites 

and ONE fiber one bar 

and a lovely Honeycrisp apple 

and a little relish tray 

with carrots, cherry tomatoes, cucumber and pea pods 

what there is no picture of is my coffee (yes I tracked it!) 

and my breakfast 

which will be same as yesterday 

egg white (4) sandwich on an Oroweat thin 

loving life 

well maybe not at first I woke up with an ANGRY headache 

a few sips of coffee and an Advil 

slept for 2 more hours and I am good to go 

last work day and then vacation for 6 days 

I am attending Tony Robbins in Los Angeles next week 

not gonna lie 

freaked out like bananas 

when I get back from the event 

I will be like 

tootles me peeps 

see ya tomorrow morning