It's a Breakfast Club kinda day

Yes I am still alive 

working it working it 

some days are good ... 

but then there's that teany tiny twig 

it's small 

you wouldn't even see it if you weren't looking 

cause I am always focused on the big things 

dealing with the BIG issues, sometimes I miss the small stuff 

and those can sometimes be the most dangerous 

the tiny things 

yep... 

but I don't give up 

always working 

always picking myself up and 

and taking back my power 

sometimes I give my power away 

to people I don't even know 

so dumb, huh??!! 

well nope 

I have it back 

two friends helped me out yesterday

pulled me out of my head

 one knocked some sense into me 

read me the riot act! 

but these are the people I NEED in my life 

keeping it real people 

let's do this! 

yeah baby 

recapping 3 and on 4

yesterday 

totally on plan 

did 50 minutes of cardio 

so today is a rest day 

day off 

total chill? 

nah..

girl here has things to do today 

I planned out my food 

places to go today 

but no excuses 

staying on plan is the promise 

I made myself 

side note 

weight was down 1.8 from yesterday 

wowsa! 

no jerky and my last meal was 4pm yesterday 

so I will have a 14 hour fast 

fat burning time 

later taters 

off to shower, eat and start my day 

see yall tomorrow 

today is 3 of 30

day 3 of my own 30 day I promise _____

challenge isn't the right word 

it's not a challenge 

it's me entering into honoring my promises to myself 

so day #1 ... totally rocked it 

kept all my promises 

yesterday 

I worked out 

and this was my food plan 

which I hit 

only thing I ate off this was one EXTRA ounce of Jerky 

and I tried a new milk 

so today is day #3 

pretty much food will be a repeat 

and I am doing just cardio today 

tomorrow is a rest day 

not an exciting post 

but I need this next 30 days to stay accountable 

may be a tad boring 

I will also be doing a daily Facebook live 

as a recap and to also help me through this 30 days 

tootles my noodles 

gotta run 

I promise

stay with me on this

your circle, your family... when they give you a commitment

do you expect them to keep said commitment?

"oh let's meet at such and such time and carpool there" 

do you expect them to show up? 

wait for them?

stay with me here... I am going somewhere with this... 

so why do we flake so much and so often on our commitments to ourselves? 

I made a commitment to myself 

live a fit and healthy life 

and I have been keeping that commitment 

ahh for the most part 

and that statement right there 

is OVER 

"for the most part" 

I am making a promise 

a PUBLIC announcement

no more "for the most part" 

no more 

for 30 days 

every day for the next 30 days 

I will work out according to MY plan 

I will eat according to MY plan 

I will read the book I have told myself I "want" to read 

30 days 

I will make it through the next 30 days keeping my promises to MYSELF 

how about you? 

can you do this with me? 

this is not a rah rah pump you up kinda post 

this is REAL 

calculated, thought out, calmly figuring out what is possible 

not "I am going to go run a marathon tomorrow"

... no 

what promises to myself  CAN I keep? 

just that? 

every day for the next 30 days 

I will work out according to MY plan 

I will eat according to MY plan 

I will read the book I have told myself I "want" to read 

30 days 

who's with me? 

New to the blog

No more booze

No more regrets

No longer afraid

Not afraid of everyone

Not afraid you’ll laugh 

Because you may judge me

but that’s YOUR judgment

I can now shop in normal stores

Buy clothes online

I don’t have to take my clothes out of the dryer damp so I can stretch them larger

Or hide the food wrappers

Or drink ALL the alcohol

Because gees peas

Why would you buy it and NOT expect me to drink it all?

Or eat it all?

I don’t have to be afraid anymore

Because I truly believe

I believe in sobriety

I believe in exercise

I believe in taking care of myself

It’s NOT selfish

That’s what I USED to think

I had to take care of everyone else

I wasn’t important

They were

I wasn’t

So I drank and ate

And I lost myself

But I am back

And I can do this

So can you

You got this

There is a way back

It’s not too late

I know because I was there

But now I am here

There is a way back

 Believe me

side note... yes I do own nice clothes 

but give me a break... this is pajama time at 4AM 

love, peace and chicken grease 

you got this ma peeps 

Busting through

new week

new focus

lets go

lets go

lets go

if you had too much over the weekend

shrug it off

get over it

new day ma peeps new day

I shared this video this morning on my Facebook

totally worth a watch!

This weekend was HUGE 

as I broke through a self restricting barrier 

like busted

smashed that puppy into smithereens! 

got tired of thinking about it

planning for it

obsessing over it

strategizing about it

nuttin to it but to do it

excuse the morning hair 

off to the gym 'work and get those goals! 

love peace and chicken grease 

YOU GOT THIS!!! 

like NOW!!!!

My coach, trainer, mentor, friend, inspiration just did a live on Facebook 

and she talked about 3 things

three things you NEED to be successful in your fitness/weight loss goals

well before we go there

let's talk about should's

should of, would of, could of

stop saying SHOULD!!!!

change your should's into musts!!

stop shoulding all over yourself!!! 

any whoosle 

the 3 things.... 

why? mindset and accountability 

your why has to be STRONG 

like rock solid! write it out, dig deep 

next one is mindset

do you have a growth mindset? 

because if we are not growing then we are dying 

and what are you doing TODAY to nurture that growth mindset? 

and lastly accountability 

so what do ya say? 

are you ready to get serious? 

like not tomorrow?

not Monday 

not later

not when "the time is right" 

like now? 

who is ready? 

iamkarlam@yahoo.com 

tootle my noodles