thank you Friends

I think 

maybe 

perhaps

could be 

not sure 

but maybe........

maybe just maybe I have a bit of 

wind in my sails 

momentum? 

yeah actually I am 

serious! 

I know shocker! 

so I am not going to make a big ole deal 

just keep on keeping on 

cause y'all know 

so there is no "finish" 

no "done" 

no real "goal line" 

I do this 

daily 

every day 

so I feel better 

have clarity and not so much crappola in my head 

so let's go for another, shall we? 

another day 

todays thought 

wake up tomorrow feeling good about yesterdays choices

how about y'all? 

sound like a plan? 

go out there and be awesome! 

one day or was it day one?

so yesterday went well 

no major plan 

I know them all 

all the food plans 

I could pass a DMV diet plan test 

all I have done: 

paleo

Weight Watchers

points plus 

Jenny Craig 

Whole 30

"clean eating" 

shake diet 

Keto 

low carb 

counting calories 

just to name a few 

think I have commitment issues 

well not into deep thinking this morning 

let's keep it and this simple 

had a good day yesterday 

let's try for two in a row, shall we? 

so I am going to go crafty craft 

journal 

iron my clothes 

do my morning thang 

tootles

feeling so lost

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disclaimer

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warning this is a total brain dump... 

you will more than likely be bored out of your gord reading this 

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I am feeling so lost and defeated 

I was so in the grove

like IN the grove 

food was on point 

workouts were on point and then about last October I started going sideways 

and now 9 months later I am lost in space 

148 → 172

like every day is a new fad 

every morning a new resolution 

I have a slew of feelings (as you can imagine) behind all this 

but I guess more than all the feelings 

a big question mark 

food was packed yesterday 

I had all these grandiose goals 

nothing crazy 

no extreme diets 

nothing over the top 

got to work 

yeah I was a tad worked up, overwhelmed, frustrated, angry 

blah blah blah 

life in retail 

bottom line .....a normal day 

and I snapped 

boom like mega food fest 

like What? 

so what do I do today? 

so upset and blah blah blah 

man this sucks 

can't seem to find the groove 

it's like a freaking mountain ridge I can't seem to scale 

can I make it through today? 

let's just see 

not some crazy "packed and tracked" goal 

just be normal

don't go crazy 

one day Karla 

one day girl 

#toomanygifs

ACCOUNTABILITY

sorry about the caps there 

this morning 166.4

down a but and being patient with myself 

but found an accountability partner 

she gets a scale picture EVERY morning 

man oh man makes me think before I eat! 

weekly plan: 

gym days this week 

Monday, Thursday and Friday 

cardio days 

Tues, Wednesday and Sunday 

no activity Saturday 

meal prep is coming Thursday 

I ordered 8 meals to see how that goes 

keeping it mostly lower carb 

here's myfitness pal 

and I changed my dairy settings to public... if anyone even cares 

so today is tracked and packed 

off to go get ready for the gym 

tootles 

sad sad shape

this morning 172
goal for the day
eat and drink only what is on my plan
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onto day #4

this is gonna be quick 

I woke up late, have to put my food together (it's already all tracked) 

and do the treadmill 

so down and dirty

love to add this to a meal  

calories aren't too bad  

yogurt

I didn't tease them, they got a treat  

I love this company  

the smartcake's are amazing! 

viola! ham ans cheese 

breakfast  

may have had two 😉

been adding this to my water, so good  

1/4 a rice bowl, unlimited veggies and a veggie burger 

and with that peanut sauce

gotta run 

its the weirdest thing

I don't have any fun snappy pictures today 

I will take some today 

what I do have is a weird all of a sudden SHIFT 

Like something in me flipped 

I was watching an Instagram gal I follow and she talked about goals 

and breaking them down into manageable goals 

big goal → final destination 

clothing goal/ or could be a pamper myself goal 🤷...this one not sure if she said or I added this 

Then she talked about those changing numbers goals → you know 170-160-150-140-130 

then she broke it down more into the skinny side of the numbers... like going from 160 to 150 make it a goal to get to 165! so you can be on the "skinny side" 

this really for some reason struck me ... this is under her "my story" 

so I was thinking yesterday ... I just need to get to the "skinny side" of the 160's ... Karla don't fret about the whole picture just focus on that and I breezed through the day... that and I ate like every 2-3 hours 

Love me some old Weight Watchers points plan 

so this morning I'll hit the treadmill for 20 minutes, maybe start the ab circuit (was thinking of adding that in a few times a week) 

for now at least the gym is a No No 

I hit it too hard last week and my shoulder is messed up 

so I am laying low..... my body is reminding me of my age (dumb body!!!) 

but my mind is like nah ... you're good girl ... GO!!!! 

so shoulder pain won! Its just walking for now 

so back to the shifted mind topic 

I looked back in 2010 and it took me 6 months to get to goal from here! 

6 FREAKIN months 

so chill out girly girl! 

relax and chill 

you're gonna be on this journey for a bit 

and it's okay 

click 

light switch moment 

(for now) 

always needing that disclaimer hahahahaah 

cause for the most part I am a hot mess 

but for TODAY.... 

food is planned, tracked and soon to be packed 

then I will journal, do some art for like an hour

treadmill... then off to work 

all my spare time is morning time 

after work I am like a zombie and ready for bed 

so tootles my peeperoos 

see y'all tomorrow