Ten things Thursday
- I weighed 146 this morning after a candy/peanut butter binge yesterday
- One of my favorite lady blogger is BACK and in a groove :) love her!!
- I am going to start tracking points and protein again (not points plus... regular old points) I pulled out some old journals this morning and when I was tracking points and protein, my weight was 10 pounds less than it is now!!! that ole weight creep is starting ...!!!! eeekkk!!!
- I am stressing about tonight... I have to go to a meeting and I am totally unprepared and don't even KNOW how to get prepared... yikes!!!
- Maybe I need to start eating my frozen yogurt more often... I noticed in my old journals, I had it several times a week and yet I was 10 pounds lighter... what??!!
- I think I am too much focused on PROTEIN and not getting enough carbs...??? could be why I binge so much and my weight is up 10 pounds
- I feel so often like an outsider in the weight loss.. blogging... instagram community ... I haven't had a lap band.. nothing surgical, lost the weight using WWers but never went to any meetings, I am not a 20-30 year old fitness queen (people I follow on Instagram) .... I want to go to the Fit bloggin events but haven't ... fear maybe?
- I have HUGE regrets about my weight ... why in the HELL did I wait so long to lose the weight? CRAP I was 50 for crying out loud!! stupid ass!! but then I think... better later than never... and if I had lost the weight earlier in life maybe I would have been a better Mom (health wise) to my kids... ::::sheesh:::: I fed my kids hot dogs, macaroni and cheese and frozen peas.. that was a "balanced" diet in my mind back then... Regrets are poison and I work hard EVERY day to banish them from my mind.. I think I annoy people sometimes.... they think I am maybe "fake optimistic" ... truth is I have so many negative, poisonous thoughts going on in my mind.. I am working HARD HARD HARD to turn them around... hence the "fake optimistic" ... fake it till you make ... old AA saying :)
- I get lost going ANYWHERE, and I am forgetful... dementia? Alzheimer's? .. I would be worried but I have been getting lost my whole life.. it's like I am missing the directional gene ... lol and OMG there are soooooooooo many things to remember in my job, if a few slip through the cracks... oh well, that's why I have an assistant ... thank you Lalo.. he is awesome!!
- ... tomorrow maybe, I gotta run
okay maybe 9 things Thursday... tee hee
Okay folks... gotta start my day
wish me good weight loss jue jue today!!