tomorrow is weigh day
and I am nervous
why? I used some of my weeklies this week ...
not all of them but this is where my head starts spinning
here is my inner critic... Evil Karla
you did this once, what makes you think you can again? you are weak... blah blah blah blah ...
I am not even going to give the thoughts blog space because they are just FEAR screaming at me
again Big Book reference:
... fears thoroughly. BB How It Works, p.68
We reviewed our fears thoroughly.
... fears were to prove groundless? 12&12 Tradition Three, p.140
How could we then guess that all those fears were to prove groundless?
I am just afraid and maybe part of me is afraid to succeed?
well what about all the attention? people thinking I will fail?
those thinking "Oh you got this"
Do I? ... Got this?
I am just me... on a journey to feel better in my skin,
stop the binge/diet cycle...
fit back into my size 6's...
and what's weird .... and people I love and are close to me have said ...
You have a problem.. obsessed I have heard that word
ahhh ... HELLO??? I am a frigging grocery store manager that battles her weight
kind of make perfect sense...
this post kind of turned into a rambling gumble... that's how things go at 4:30 AM
so work today and then off tomorrow
food today :
protein shake coffee
2 LF Eggos and egg whites
egg whites and sandwich thin
cottage cheese and green beans
ham and whipped cream cheese roll up on an 80 calorie La Tortilla
135 calorie Carb-d-lite frozen yogurt