when I was in high school there was a store.... the 5-7-9 store... I wanted SO bad to be able to shop in that store, but I couldn't
I still remember the store, I remember where it was in the mall
Then later in my life
"wow you have gained a lot of weight" OMG I was horrified the person had the nerve to say that to me
... as I am holding up size 12 jeans... "oh my Gawd if you wear that BIG of a size I will go ahead and shoot you myself"
It was always a struggle... then pregnancies and babies
it literally took me 10 years to lose my baby weight ... get back to the pre pregnancy me
10 friggin years!!!
then I remember when on line came around and the internet (yeah I am old) it was only AOL back then
and information overload
those were the diet pills years
then I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and no more diet pills ... didn't want to die
I basically gave up fell into the bottle... then came AA ... and I climbed out of the bottle
weight fell off
okay in my mind it was the booze all along
problem solved.... I am CURED!!
but I wasn't because the weight came back
what the heck!!!
then in 2010 I tried Weight Watchers AGAIN with no expectation of success
I just realized it was going to take a long time and this blog helped me but then it came back AGAIN
what the hell!!! this is so friggin annoying
so here I sit at 56 with no magic solution.... it wasn't the booze, the diet pills are a no go .... organized meetings freak me out (the anti social part of me.... AA didn't cure that in me)
so I guess there is no "cure" no "magic solution" what works for you may not and does not work for me
it's just little (or medium sized) ole me .... that was my attempt at humor
just little ole me doing this thing ... called life... no not just losing weight
it is in session
Hawaii is just around the corner and I am going to go and have an awesome time and not obsess over the fact that I am no longer a size 6... maybe one day again but I am not going to wait... not going to wait to feel good about my life
I have a good life, many blessings
yesterday was on point... today is planned (food wise)
and I am here to fight another day
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