Why do I self sabotage
I would have been my goal three months ago but
I seem to always take two steps forward one step back
it's like I am afraid of being successful
I have come too far to quit.
I will put on my big girl pants and continue to do the work
Just keeping it real here people
Some days are bad
I hear all the time you cannot out exercise a bad diet, this is so true
I surround myself with positive people,
very active in all of the supportive Facebook groups
I reach out to people but then I still self sabotage
Wake up "the morning after" saying never again
Says every alcoholic the morning after
no I didn't drink... Food seems to be my drug of choice lately
Going to spend the next two days nutritionally cleansing
and try to get my head and my body back to a normal place
Try and push the darkness out of my head.
Sounds very melodramatic but that's really kind how it feels...
I know deep down my deep dark fear is fear of failure
and looking stupid.
I think this is why I have socially isolated for so many years
I am just a normal insecure unsure of herself
50ish... looking for answers to life
confused hard-working driven gal
Today will be a better day Dang I sure hope so