Thursday, December 29, 2016

Pug kinda post

I always am in a reflective mood at the end of a year
of the crazy things I tried over the past year
some worked and I should have stuck with it
some didn't work
so planning for 2017
yesterday was an amazing day!!!
food was good
exercise on point
just will take some time to build up some momentum
let's see shall we?
break this down
Valentine's day will be the target
baby steps 
and the weirdest thing popped into my mind yesterday 
 "Karla.... would a fit girl eat that???" 
yeah okay I am crazy... I wanna be a fit girl 
not a fat/fluffy girl 
2017 goals 




Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Goals?

so many times I have set goals 
and failed to get to those goals 
Carrie Fisher dying shook me up 
she was only 60
I am 57
it scares me 
what if I never reach my goals?
because I have spent so much time just talking about them 
talk is cheap 
actions speak louder than words 


she was only 60! 
time for some action 
less talk 
I have a plan for 2017
feels good to have a plan 
no time for talk 
have work to do 


Monday, December 26, 2016

Minions Christmas recap

so how did I do? 
did I gorge myself? 
well let's just say
coffee cake and me.... we be friends
boo 
I DID discover something important 
my bathroom scale is busted!!!! 
jokes on me.... was it heavy? light? 
who knows 
I am not going to weigh until 1/1/17
6 days
yikes!!!
not sure I can stay off my scale that long
but I will try
relax, recover from holiday #1
and warming up for holiday #2
20 days until vacation
today is coffee cake detox day
tootles

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas 
I hope today finds you surrounded by loved ones
good food
and happy and healthy family members 
A day to not just rip open presents 
but to be grateful for all we have been given   
 and remember the reason for the season 
For God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not die but have eternal life.
For God did not send his Son into the world to be its judge, but to be its savior.


Saturday, December 24, 2016

reflecting

thinking about 2016......
how did I do with my goals? 
well....... 
not so good 
I did the usual start... stop Karla thing 
so frustrating... why do I do this? 
I know why... and I think I have the answer BUT too soon to talk about that now 
discovered in 2016 that I have some SEVERE social anxieties 
I DO NOT do well in groups 
totally feel awkward, out of place and have crazy anxiety
That's okay... I can deal with that I am okay with people I know... kinda/sorta 
 I tried to deal with feeling/anxieties by turning to food 
result: I ate too much 
yeah how silly is that! 
had some momentum going earlier in the year but 
I got overwhelmed things fell apart 
I am in the process of trying to rebuild 
some things I am discovering cannot be rebuilt 
once things are different 
that's how they are 
but I am looking forward to 2017 
I think I may have figured out the 
or my 
combo that works 
keeping things quiet for now 
I want some progress under my belt before I am shouting from the hilltops 
tootles




Friday, December 23, 2016

Good Morning?

if it's 1:45 AM do I say Good Morning?
or is it still night?
my mind was spinning and got me up .... went kind of like this
a gift card to buy, a card to write, a buffet to bring something to and I have no plan!!! My knees hurt? do they or do they feel better? do I weigh in the morning or no? Services are tonight. Will the floors look better? How do I get the gift card and make it to service? egg white frittata.... will anyone eat it? when will I have time to food shop? Why did he want the ham? Did I make the right decision to try it again? Why can't I sleep? Instagram? Is Izzy whining? does she need to go out? I should sleep ......
well 2 hours later, laundry done, lunch bag packed, food tracked, beds made
 and I am ready to go back to sleep 
oh well 
work to do today!!! 
gym then work... 
today will be a caffeinated day for sure!!! 
tootles 





Thursday, December 22, 2016

Be nice People

Weird year this year 
we pulled names and I have only one gift to buy 
I feel off kilter not going crazy shopping 
I heard yesterday it's Jingle Bells in December 
and in January it's juggle the bills 
but this year that's not the case for me 
feels weird not being in the frantic Christmas shopping frenzy 
the only frantic holiday experience I have had is holiday traffic 
I have a plan for 2017
I will talk about it later 
going to meld two things together that have worked in the past 
but for today 
BE NICE PEOPLE 
the stresses of the season can make some of you 
grumpy 

so be nice today 
tootles 


Wednesday, December 21, 2016

how did this all start?

looking back at my blog

2010 ... started at 199.6 ended at 139.6

this was the epic year!!! I lost freakin 60 pounds on my own, used Weight Watchers the old calories/fat and fiber method and walked on my treadmill daily only 20 minutes but I was a ROCK STAR!!!!!

2011... 139.6 ended 139.6 this was a year about learning to maintain and I started training with a trainer and switched more to "clean" eating

2012 ended at 139.4 this marked 2 full years of maintaining my weight loss I discovered I loved lifting weights and being in the gym

2013 ended at 142... weight started to go up, nothing earth shattering but I remember being devastated I didn't end 2013 under 140

2014 is where everything went to heck... I tried Low Carb and binging started to become a problem. rejoined Weight Watchers like 10 times gained another 16 pounds in 2014

2015 ...158 more Weight Watcher fails tried Whole 30 and low carb and Weight Watchers trying trying trying to get back my mojo

2016 ...174.4 tried a shake system, worked for a while.... I got down to 152 and I loved the community but ..................well let's just leave that whole thing alone

2017 ... I will be starting at 163 I am pretty sure

what do I do what do I do?

  • Old Weight Watchers worked for me but once you start eating clean... it's hard to rationalize being able to eat boxed processed foods and lose weight..... but it did work.... not quick but it did work for me maybe this is why I have joined Weight Watchers like 10-15 times over the last 5 years.... but funny in 2010 I never joined... just did the old system and it worked for me 
  • Whole 30... like how I feel on this but it is hard to stay true to this, VERY restrictive 
  • Low carb... I can never get through the keto flu... I ALWAYS felt like crap 
  • Shake system ... 
so what should be my plan of attack for 2017? 

I know I am going to keep training as I love this .... my knees have been bothering me so todays workout was kind of meh ..... I think tomorrow morning I will just pop some Aleve and push myself I hate leaving the gym feeling meh 

another weird post.... just thinking about everything 










Tuesday, December 20, 2016

time for some small changes maybe???

so I have several meals already prepped 
like freakin 9!!! 
but here's the issue 
winter squash.... acorn squash, spaghetti squash, butternut squash and sweet potato
I think I need more broccoli, green beans and salads 
lighter vegetables 
so today I will meal prep again and then load my freezer 
so the meals keep longer 
and I think I need to give up the almond butter 
scale isn't budging 
like stuck
not moving 
no movement 
same 
so eating no sugar, no dairy, no grain, 
no artificial sweeteners has helped not to night eat 
no food binge lately 
so thats a good thing 
but my arse is still fat and that's the bad thing 
so I will give this another week to 10 days before I declare it a flop 
and see 
so maybe New Years I will have a resolution 
yet another (or old) attempt to lose the flab 
always trying 
tootles bloggity folks 




Monday, December 19, 2016

Morning musings during the holidays

so tales from the scale.... 
4 days on Whole 30 (ish) and down 
get ready for this ..... 
.3 
 like where is that mega loss? 
the 5 pound's gone loss? 
what the heck??!!   
so instantly I think 
I am going back to bars, shakes and 
thinking thinking thinking 

there has not been a binge in at LEAST a week 
I came home last night and the hubster had baked freaking cookies!!! 
I just looked at them, and no freak out. 
no "I have to scarf on cookies" feeling 
nope 
nothing 
so this morning I packed my feeder bag lunch bag 
and I will keep going on this 

if I can eat and not freak out 
and go sugar crazy then 
this is working! 
if this can be freedom from food binging!
What a gift this would be 
(okay I am stretching to make this Christmasy) 
going to be a busy week 
so I am sticking to this 
ant slow pace ..... 
tootles bloggity friends 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

My food basically

I am a Grocery store manager 
so having a blog about food and weight was always a good fit 
I am surrounded by food every day 
50 hours a week in my job plus I blog
so I am a huge foodie 
yesterday was food prep day 
15 meals 
5 days of food 
all containers have a vegetable 
acorn squash, spaghetti squash, broccoli
mixed vegetables, broccoli or green beans 
and 4-5 ounces of a protein 
chicken, turkey or chicken sausage 
add to this every morning 4 egg whites and a 100 calorie guacamole 
oops wrong kind of egg 
silly me 
and an apple with a packet of almond butter 
work out's planned for the next 5 days 
and there ya go 
the next 5 days are set 
calories right about 1500
I will track in my fitness pal to make sure 
but I stayed true to no sugar and had no binge urges 

off to work today 
tootles my bloggity friends


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