Tuesday, April 25, 2017

scale thoughts

I missed my morning coffee picture oops 
but I went to the gym for an hour and then had 
yogurts and 2 oranges 
I was hungry yesterday morning... must have been the work out  
2 rice cakes 
I am struggling this morning... 
thinking oh I will just do a shake day (only protein shakes) 
or a cleanse day 
because the scale went up  
4 hard boiled eggs whites, 2 slices Bimbo crispy toast 
and spicy mustard 
but here's the deal.... 
scale fluctuations happen... 
maybe I should weigh less 
I am a certified nutzo 
I weigh EVERY morning pretty much  
Green Giant mashed cauliflower
1/4 c Quoina 
3 ounces lean ground beef 
I think I will stay off the scale for a bit 
and just focus on my plan 
1596 calories a day 
move my body 5-6 times a week 
3-4 liters of water a day  
110 calories of Jiffy pop 
this snack I love 
keeps me full and I feel like I am indulging 
glad I added this one back i 
vegetable soup and some water 
flavored with some Crystal light tea 
broccoli and 3 ounces of ham 
now even as I am typing this I am trying to see 
where and why there would have been a gain 
the gym? water retention from sore muscles trying to repair themselves? 
too much salt? ham, popcorn
oh wow Karla... you have too many artificial sweeteners
shoosh!!!! 
quiet my head!!! 
I am doing fine 
stop with the stress 
this is where I want to do something drastic to "fix" this that is "not working" 
no wonder I have struggled for YEARS 
see all this noise in my head? 
cray cray  
more water and my LARGE 128 calorie 
good day 
let the madness take a rest 
I am going to go into the kitchen 
pack my food for the day 
stay within my calorie budget 
and stay off the scale tomorrow 
see yall tomorrow 
less of me I hope 


Monday, April 24, 2017

Food confessional

so I used to do this when I started my blog 
picture upon picture of my food 
morning coffee 
but I stopped doing it because I thought it was too boring  
4 egg whites, low carb tortilla and 1 T Parmesan cheese 
but this blog was started as accountability for me and I kind of 
got away from that ... I think it may be time to get back to that place 
Babybel 
small but yummy 
yogurt 
ah yum  
4 egg whites, mustard and Bimbo crispy toast 
then I get/got embarrassed ... 
I eat a lot 
do I eat too much? 
will people judge me?  
Jolly Time 100 calorie popcorn
will they think I eat too many carbs? 
not enough protein? 
too much processed foods? 
2 cups grapefruit sections 
so I stopped
the chatter in my head was so LOUD 
and you know??? 
all self induced no one made those comments 
3.8 ounces chicken, green beans and I tried adding 
a bit of jalapeno mustard... it was GOOD!!! 
and I ate in secret... if I didn't tell the blog/the world
if I ate and no one saw
then it didn't count
......
ah no Karla!!! 
derp 
unplanned 
coffee with some half and half 
so good work was a crazy madhouse 
and the caffeine boost was much needed 
2 rice cakes ... another yum! 
oh this would have spun me 
Caramel... too much sugar 
I should be drinking a protein shake 
sheesh... Karla chill out girl!!!  
veggies, 3 ounces ground turkey breast 
and some Ranch popcorn seasoning 
but we each have our own way 
and I like eating right now 
it's satisfying me and I am losing the binge weight 
again 
I am not some weight loss Leader
I am just me fighting my own demons
but I am fitting in a size 8 so I am not doing everything wrong
when I used to be in a 22
sure I miss my 4's but time will tell  
4 liters water 
and a low carb Sugar free frozen yogurt 
a LARGE 
not a small 
not a child size 
a massive large one 
and I enjoyed every bite of it!!! 
this is truly a food confessional  
and the final numbers 
stayed in my calorie budget 
drank my water 
saw a loss this morning 
I listened to Sean's podcasts yesterday 
on the way to work and home 
food is packed for today
I am working out this morning 
all good in my hood 
tootles bloggity crew 
see you tomorrow 
less of me that is 






Sunday, April 23, 2017

The post of a million pictures

so I am still on eat eat eat and it's going great great great 
and I am watching the scale like a mad woman 
but it's going down  
4 egg whites 
1T Parmesan cheese 
low carb tortilla  
now don't quote me on this 
but eating more may just work for me  
4 whites on crispy Bimbo toast  
rice cake  
grapefruit
I am NOT even the teeny tiniest bit hungry 
this will definitely ward against the dreaded binge  
am I the only person that struggles with gain/lose 
or am I just a weirdo 
I was doing it like a ROCKSTAR then I got a compliment 
and woosh into binge land 
green beans and chicken
veggies and ground turkey 
I think this would qualify me for the nut house! 
veggie soup  
and my SF frozen yogurt  
since I didn't work out I thought I would wear my fitbit 
this is normal Saturday activity as a Grocery Store Manager 
but I do have a large store  
yeah right :P 
this is the only thing about the my Fitness pal 
it can be a tease 
SERIOUSLY!!!??? 

and the days fitbit numbers 
sad sad day 
Rest in Peace Erin Moran 



Saturday, April 22, 2017

I think maybe I forgot a basic rule

I ate yesterday... I mean I ATE!!! 
warning... boring food journal post 
I think maybe I have forgotten a rule
a basic rule 
morning coffee 
to lose weight you have to EAT 
2 Slices of high fiber crispy Bimbo toast 
4 egg whites 
100 calorie pack guacamole  
keep eating = not hungry 
not hungry = feeling satisfied  
feeling satisfied = no food binge 
cauliflower mash, quinoa and lean ground beef  
water liter #2 
vegetable soup AKA fart soup 
yep I was a stinker Belle yesterday 
smelly but working on my thin  
mixed vegetables, 3 ounces lean ground turkey 
and some Ranch flavored popcorn seasoning 

oops unplanned 50 calorie 
caramel rice cake 50 calorie 
water #3 with some Green tea flavored
 Crystal light stick 
and finally my sugar free Carb'd lite 
frozen yogurt 
okay okay I know this looks like a LOT 
and maybe it is 
I tweeted everything 
the link is upper right
but I stayed in the calorie budget 
worked out also 
so it was a good day! 
I think I need to stay on this path for a spell 
more FOOD 
it get's to be a PITA 
a lot of food = a lot of food prep so I 
get why I fall into the shakes mentality 
but for now 
let's go with this  
feeling good 
tootles bloggity crew 
see yall tomorrow 
less of me that is 

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

The value of being consistent

let talk numbers
lot's of numbers
high school weight 125
highest weight 220
times lost over 50 pounds : 3
2010 started at 199
2010 ended at 139
Hawaii 181
now 158
goal 139
times lost that SAME 5 pounds... 1,000,000,000,000,000

herein lies the value of being consistent
what does all this equal? 
being consistent is key 
#word 

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