so the other day I blogged about
I don't care Karla, meh meh Karla and in the zone Karla
what do all these voices in my head think of one another
boy this girl is getting a little cray cray here
but just stay with me here for a minute
I don't care Karla envy's in the zone Karla and is afraid of the meh meh me
meh meh is wishy washy and not helpful, this state of mind is very destructive... tears me down with doubt, discontent and inability to stay committed, meh meh state of mind is actually MORE destructive to me than the I don't care state of mind...
at least I don't care is in some way at peace with my decisions and in the zone is DEFINITELY committed. Commitment is the sweet spot
now the meh meh state of mind.... the place I have been for seems like FOREVER
more like about 6 months... truthfully
this mindset is sooooo destructive for me
I would rather be totally in the zone
crazy annoying in the zone (which I am so capable of)
this mindset destroys relationships
destroys my confidence
eats at me
like a plague
no trust anymore
so how do I get out of this mindset meh meh land?
searching not for a way
I know there are a million ways to get where I want to go
I just need the mindset
what to do?
what to do?