Monday, August 14, 2017

kind of embarrassing

kind of embarrassing 
but it is what it is 
a starting point to which I will progress from 
yep this was my day 
no sugar coating 
true to what I ate 
every bite 
no lie 
morning coffee 
creamer is always 
half unsweetened almond milk (sometimes the almond coconut) 
and half SF carnation 
took this with me to the gym and had on my way home 
got a good upper body in 
I can kill it at the gym 
food is my problem 
as you will see  
love these bars from Costco  
got my water in 
3 liters total today  
4 egg whites 
1 egg 
and 2 LF Eggo waffles  
coffee bean with a scoop of SF vanilla powder 
dang this puppy had 50 calories 
that's a burn  
Falafel plate from Tender Greens 
lunch with the DD 
I didn't eat the bread  
SF Fro Yo  
I MAY have had 
like 4 strawberries 
while cleaning them for the hubster  
tomato and corn for dinner  
they had steak 
 I have been weirded out about meat 
since that netflicks 
food documentary  
can't remember the name of it 
maybe I blocked it intentionally 
I ate 3 ears 
::::::: hanging head in shame ::::::: 
3 bites of DMIL's Jello  
and 3 bites of Halo 
total was 1960
not the 1200-1500 which is my budget 
I wish I was as strict with myself as my fellow blogger Sean 
alas that's not my story 
struggle is my story 
better tomorrow 
goal will be attainable 
how about UNDER 1900?
that should be doable
whatcha think? 
yeah I am a BIG eater 
not some dainty flower here 
gots some work ta do!!! 
fer sure 

less thinking.... more doing

this blog has been a food dairy, and my attempt at being silly
I am going to go back to daily journaling via pictures
I went back to Seans turning point in 2014 
and I was also reading a farewell post (maybe)
and FogDog's frustration this morning 
and this is my conclusion:
less thinking, less planning, less analyzing, less procrastinating
more doing
more of what I AM and less of who I want to be and wish I was
food dairy was boring but it was working
being silly was more about an attempt to entertain
and about YOU
this blog is for me
see how selfish I am ..... lol
Sean made a very thought provoking statement back in a post in 2014
and I keep thinking about it this morning
You see, I tend to suffer from paralysis by analysis.
and this is SOOOOO me
so just doing
pictures later tonight of my food
what's the plan?
My fitness pal
1200-1500 calories
current BMI 26.3
goal BMI 21.8
I have been on the bubble for 18 months now
so frustrating
everyone has a different method
just going to do what works for me
the sticking to it part is the hard part for me
exactly 2 months to my birthday
let's see what I can accomplish by then

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Ventura County Fair day

actually it's not 125,865,957,365,587,459,000  times 
I did the math
that would be thinking I started dieting at maybe 13
I am 57
that's 44 years 
so if I would have said to myself every morning 
it would be 16,060 times 
this is the kind of things I think of
sad... I know but that's me 
so how did I do yesterday? 
I did have 2 meals 
which were good 
but no shakes.... I had 2 bars instead 
and 2 snacks 
one was okay... the other not so much 
5 whites and 2 LF Eggo waffles 
1 Quest bar 
side salad... dressing on the side and I only ate 2 of the croutons 
2 grilled fish tacos, diodn't eat the tortillas or the rice pilaf 
1 Kirkland protein bar 
SF frozen yogurt 
chips and guacamole 

sounded better before .... huh? 
oh well 

I'll give it another go today 
we are off the the Ventura County fair today 
so I am going to be hunting grilled corn 
and strawberries while the hubster 
is munchin on fried fair foods 
last day of the fair...
it'll be a fun day 

Saturday, August 12, 2017

the 125,865,957,365,587,459,000th time

been hiding 
some good days
some bad 
no consistancy 
now I am on vacation for 9 days 
plan is easy 
2 shakes, 2 meals
throw in an apple for a snack now and then
back to an old plan 
it worked so we'll see 
might be going back to days of old 
I'll give it 9 days 
I can do 9 days 
I think 

work outs are the easy part... I love this part 
food part keeps tripping me up 
so let's give this a go 
what do ya say? 
I am going for it 
I am going to ATTEMPT to blog 
every one of these next 9 days 
here I go 
for the 125,865,957,365,587,459,000th time 
hey fall down 9 times... get up 10
thats a saying ..... right? 

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