Tuesday, November 28, 2017

You can't unlearn things (caution long post)

I am an alcoholic 
full blow, black out drunk 
but I have been sober for 7 years now 
because I know I can't drink 
not socially 
not "just a glass" or "just one" 
because one = two = ten = years and years 
that's what happens 
food is kind of the same way I am finding 
you can't unlearn 
I changed my life back on 1/1/10 
gave up the booze, started eating to lose weight 
then started learning to eat healthier 
I read so much 
too much that 
I can't go back 
then I started to move my body 
it started with just 20 minutes a day walking 
then working out 
then again I know how great I feel 
inside and outside 
when my food is good 
my workouts are good 
and I am accountable 
11/6/17 I woke up and felt awful 
so I just went back to what I know 
what I was TRYING to unlearn 
working out, eating clean 
11/27/17 I was down to 157.8
almost 10 pounds in 21 days 
so funny it is HARDER to feel like crap 
it actually takes LESS effort to take care of myself 
less thinking, less scheming
and I am learning when people push on me 
because they don't agree with my choices 
of foods, workouts, or methods 
that's them not me 
that is THEIR issue and THEIR deal 

I am done fighting 
I can't drink if I do I will kill myself and destroy my life 
I can't eat crap food or I will feel awful EVERY SINGLE DAY 
I need to keep moving my body so I can live a LONG life 
and enjoy my retirement and grandkids 

I am blessed 
because I understand 
the do's and don'ts 
as they pertain to my life
because some people do not 

Rodger Dodger, over and out 

Saturday, November 25, 2017

Thanksgiving #2

today is Thanksgiving celebration #2 
I weighed myself Thanksgiving morning for a base line weight
woke up Friday up a pound 
This morning back to base line weight
I am finding balance 😲
yeah I know for anyone who has read this blog for more than a nano second
this sounds un-achievable but I think I am getting this... 
balance .... 
I have not had a binge in over 3 weeks 
so plan for today is enjoy the experiences of the family/friend gathering 
don't make today about the food 
and I am doing a boot camp this morning 
with Orangetheory session booked tomorrow
positive actions 
day one of my 9 days off 
boo yah!!! Here's to time off work 

Friday, November 24, 2017

Post Thanksgiving thoughts

what a wonderful day
friends, family, so many blessings
I am so thankful!
yeah I had to work but 🤷
being a grocery store manager and having holidays off don't go hand in hand
so this morning my weight was of course up 
and I sooo did not go crazy 
but salt, half a roll with butter and a sliver of home made pecan pie 
was so worth it 
but gotta be right back at it 
I have ANOTHER Thanksgiving Saturday 
so totally back on the food plan today 
also add the gym into the mix 
next week is vacation 
lots of little things here and there to get done 
nothing like crazy pressing 
so it'll be a relaxing vacation 
lots of green leafy salads next week 
ahhh yummo 

feeling good this morning
no crazy Thanksgiving food babies like years past 

over and out my bloggity peeps 

Sunday, November 19, 2017

copy catter dirty ratter

Remember when you sang this as a kid? 
was meant to be a burn 
I am a TOTAL copy cat 
so much of what I do, eat, exercise is based on what others do 
but yeah know what? 
It works for me 
nope... no earth shattering new ideas here 
just time tested (on you) ideas I am implementing 
and you know what? they are working!!! 
3 lifting days, cardio days 
3 meals and 2 shakes 
nope not my creation but it's working
next 6 days will be crazy town in the grocery business 
it's be nice to your grocer week 
I just made that up 
but seriously folks just be nice 
tootles bloggity homies 

Thursday, November 16, 2017


I have to share with all you!!!! 
I am feeling so AMAZING!!! 
no binge, no being off track for going on 11 days!!! 
feels so empowering! 
wow thats a lot of exclamation points!!!
3 meals, 2 shakes 
and I have spaced my food out 
making my last meal LITERALLY as I am walking out of work 
with like half a liter of water 
this way I am NOT even a little hungry when I get home 
and I have been doing good on my work outs 
I DO NOT want to start 2018 
with a "fresh start" mentality 
I want 2018 to be a "keep going" year 

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Checking in here

Good morning blog world 
3:50 AM here in dark cold California 
the world is asleep and here I sit blogging
slept WONDERFUL.... but via a pill 
not good 
One of today's to do's is to buy some melatonin 
try and get off the PM habit 

food has been spot on ✔
work outs have been good ✔
I missed yesterday.... trying to get OFF the PM habit 
only resulted in 2 bad nights of sleep 
so I could not face the gym yesterday 
but today yeppers 

yesterday the hubster wanted cake 😳
which is usually the beginning of a crash 
but I got him the cake 
he is an adult, I love the man 
he makes his choices I make mine 

so I got him cake 
did I even have a bite? NOPE!!! 
he ate it all
I went to bed 
now this sounds so STUPID, right? 
why would I even mention this 
but I am married to a food pusher 
love love love him 
but he is 
a food pusher
but yesterday was a no go darlin 
today is a good day 
I have a lot to be grateful for 
today is gym, church, a meeting, some shopping, and relaxing 

tootles bloggity peeps 
thank you for reading 
I am loving my Project Runway GIF's 

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Good Morning Blog world

I am going through a bloggers block 
I want to change this a bit but I am so attached 
I have always thought when bloggers ramble on and on and on and on 
I want to poke my eye out... 
like get to the point already! 
so I have always made my blogs short 
top line kinda thing 
but lately... 
a lot on my mind 
so I may turn into one of those 
have the stick ready! to poke your eyes out 
from my rambling, and on and on and on thoughts 
yesterday was a good day 
stayed on plan 
worked out 
I am sitting here blogging at 4:20 AM cause 
this time change is a bummer 
takes me a while to adjust 
today is cardio day but it's too weird to show up 
at the gym at 4 ish AM 
so I am blogging acting like I am sleeping 
but only you know I am the weirdo that woke up at 2:50 AM 
food is packed 
I have journaled, read and had some morning quiet time 
did my daily Facebook thang 

Grateful for: my family, my 4 legged fur babies 
my Savior, ability to start anew 
my job and an opportunity to be of service to others

Goals today: less gum, get my water in earlier 
space my meals better 

tootles noodles 

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Dodgers for the WIN... Game 7 is ON!!!

yesterday I stuck to my calorie budget 
my protein was high 
no cravings or inklings for the candy 
I was too into watching the Dodgers WIN to worry about candy 
woot woot  
morning coffee 
meals for the day 
chicken meatballs (bottom) 
ground turkey breast (top) 
each is 4 ounces  
and one is with shredded brussel sprouts 
shredded butternut squash 
the other is with riced cauliflower 
and riced sweep potato  
morning Ionix 
Jack agrees 
Link explains what Ionix is 
so I saw someone bake eggs on social media 
350 degree oven for 20 minutes  
super easy but next time maybe 17 minutes  
they did not peel easy and had weird brown 
burn spots 
I picked off the burned spots though 
and they were fine 
not going to throw away a dozen eggs!!!
because they baked them too long  
morning shake for on the way into work  
evening shake had it RIGHT before I left work 
It was my dinner
for the drive home  
nope, nada, zip, ziltch 
one piece of homemade baklava 
with a cup of coffee  
and the baklava and coffee did NOT spin me into a binge 
164.6 yesterday 
161.4 this morning 
to be expected I am usually 
so 164.6 was the mega candy binge 
1 day down 
6 to go 
I am working out this morning and food 
is already packed 
tootles bloggity peeps 

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