Sunday, September 15, 2019

poor sad blog

let's see if I can do a 2010 repeat!
I will take some food pictures today and see how this goes
this morning 173.8
2010 repeat needed!

Sunday, July 21, 2019

not sure why but okay

so the current plan is:  
winging it 
go with the flow kinda food plan is working for me 
I am not weighing my food, no measuring, not using an app 
I know what to eat 
I have been weighing it and measuring it 
for years! 
so I am down 6 pounds 
171 → 165
now this may not take me all the way to my "happy weight" 
but I am going to go with this as long as it works 
there is so much less noise in my head 
so let's just stick with this, shall we? 
art, walk, church, art 
yep that's my day 

Friday, July 19, 2019

thank you Friends

I think 

could be 
not sure 
but maybe........
maybe just maybe I have a bit of 
wind in my sails 
yeah actually I am 
I know shocker! 
so I am not going to make a big ole deal 
just keep on keeping on 
cause y'all know 
so there is no "finish" 
no "done" 
no real "goal line" 
I do this 
every day 
so I feel better 
have clarity and not so much crappola in my head 
so let's go for another, shall we? 
another day 
todays thought 
wake up tomorrow feeling good about yesterdays choices
how about y'all? 
sound like a plan? 
go out there and be awesome! 

Wednesday, July 17, 2019

one day or was it day one?

so yesterday went well 
no major plan 
I know them all 
all the food plans 
I could pass a DMV diet plan test 
all I have done: 
Weight Watchers
points plus 
Jenny Craig 
Whole 30
"clean eating" 
shake diet 
low carb 
counting calories 
just to name a few 

think I have commitment issues 
well not into deep thinking this morning 
let's keep it and this simple 
had a good day yesterday 
let's try for two in a row, shall we? 
so I am going to go crafty craft 
iron my clothes 
do my morning thang 

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

feeling so lost

warning this is a total brain dump... 
you will more than likely be bored out of your gord reading this 

I am feeling so lost and defeated 
I was so in the grove
like IN the grove 
food was on point 
workouts were on point and then about last October I started going sideways 
and now 9 months later I am lost in space 
148 → 172
like every day is a new fad 
every morning a new resolution 
I have a slew of feelings (as you can imagine) behind all this 
but I guess more than all the feelings 
a big question mark 
food was packed yesterday 
I had all these grandiose goals 
nothing crazy 
no extreme diets 
nothing over the top 
got to work 
yeah I was a tad worked up, overwhelmed, frustrated, angry 
blah blah blah 
life in retail 
bottom line .....a normal day 
and I snapped 
boom like mega food fest 
like What? 
so what do I do today? 
so upset and blah blah blah 
man this sucks 
can't seem to find the groove 
it's like a freaking mountain ridge I can't seem to scale 
can I make it through today? 
let's just see 
not some crazy "packed and tracked" goal 
just be normal
don't go crazy 
one day Karla 
one day girl 

Monday, July 8, 2019


sorry about the caps there 
this morning 166.4
down a but and being patient with myself 
but found an accountability partner 
she gets a scale picture EVERY morning 
man oh man makes me think before I eat! 

weekly plan: 
gym days this week 
Monday, Thursday and Friday 

cardio days 
Tues, Wednesday and Sunday 

no activity Saturday 

meal prep is coming Thursday 
I ordered 8 meals to see how that goes 
keeping it mostly lower carb 
and I changed my dairy settings to public... if anyone even cares 
so today is tracked and packed 
off to go get ready for the gym 

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Friday, May 10, 2019

onto day #4

this is gonna be quick 
I woke up late, have to put my food together (it's already all tracked) 
and do the treadmill 
so down and dirty
love to add this to a meal  
calories aren't too bad  
I didn't tease them, they got a treat  
I love this company  
the smartcake's are amazing! 
viola! ham ans cheese 
may have had two 😉
been adding this to my water, so good  
1/4 a rice bowl, unlimited veggies and a veggie burger 
and with that peanut sauce

gotta run 

Thursday, May 9, 2019

its the weirdest thing

I don't have any fun snappy pictures today 
I will take some today 
what I do have is a weird all of a sudden SHIFT 

Like something in me flipped 
I was watching an Instagram gal I follow and she talked about goals 
and breaking them down into manageable goals 
big goal → final destination 
clothing goal/ or could be a pamper myself goal 🤷...this one not sure if she said or I added this 
Then she talked about those changing numbers goals → you know 170-160-150-140-130 
then she broke it down more into the skinny side of the numbers... like going from 160 to 150 make it a goal to get to 165! so you can be on the "skinny side" 

this really for some reason struck me ... this is under her "my story" 

so I was thinking yesterday ... I just need to get to the "skinny side" of the 160's ... Karla don't fret about the whole picture just focus on that and I breezed through the day... that and I ate like every 2-3 hours 

Love me some old Weight Watchers points plan 
so this morning I'll hit the treadmill for 20 minutes, maybe start the ab circuit (was thinking of adding that in a few times a week) 

for now at least the gym is a No No 

I hit it too hard last week and my shoulder is messed up 
so I am laying low..... my body is reminding me of my age (dumb body!!!) 
but my mind is like nah ... you're good girl ... GO!!!! 
so shoulder pain won! Its just walking for now 
so back to the shifted mind topic 
I looked back in 2010 and it took me 6 months to get to goal from here! 
6 FREAKIN months 
so chill out girly girl! 
relax and chill 
you're gonna be on this journey for a bit 
and it's okay 
light switch moment 
(for now) 
always needing that disclaimer hahahahaah 
cause for the most part I am a hot mess 
but for TODAY.... 
food is planned, tracked and soon to be packed 
then I will journal, do some art for like an hour
treadmill... then off to work 
all my spare time is morning time 
after work I am like a zombie and ready for bed 
so tootles my peeperoos 
see y'all tomorrow 

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

yes I am back again today

wowsa 2 days in a row!!! shocker 😂
coffee... this is/has been a mess 
unsweetened almond milk? 
coffee mate? 
SF coffee mat? 
half and half? 
so over all this indecision... it's exhausting  
so since I am (maybe) back to bloggins meet my new babies! 
Milo (girl, left) and Otis (boy, right) 
brother and sister born 12/1/18
absolute light of my life 💕
 went out to breakfast, egg whites with onions and mushrooms, 
tomatoes not hash browns, plain wheat toast 
water, water and more water also  
snack yum  
lunch some kind of low carb 50 calorie tortilla
 velveeta, ham, pickle and rice cake "chips"  
 blackberries, sweetener and FF cool whip 
pudgy face, 15 calorie popsicle  
 veggies, marg and parm cheese 
I am a HUGE journaler, this is my fitness journal... 
I will be (I am sure) posting a lot about this  
 this morning's entry 
and the plan for today 
yah know... some thoughts here:   this may not be the "perfect clean food" and I hesitated to post for fear of imagined? judgement but yah know... phooey... I am doing what works for me... first goal... skinny side of 160's (under 165) long term goal ... 139 by 12/31/19... in looking at 2010 it took me 6-7 months to go from 166 to 139 so.... hunker down Karla and enjoy the ride 😂 ... my shoulder bothers me when I do upper body and last week doing pushups almost got me to go to Kaiser for pain shooting down my arm... so hello again treadmill 
not perfect? but perfectly imperfect 
love 💗 peace ☮ 

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

getting fat that's where!!

You know how a blogger disappears and you wonder.... where did they go? 
and you wonder.... did they gain their weight back? 
well... to end the suspense ... yes I am a fatty now 
so let's recap...
→ weight watchers on my own... big winner
→ calorie counting ... became obsessed.. got way way thin and couldn't sustain it
→ started the shake system.... did good and lost the weight, but dang I don't want to live like this forever
→ joined weight watchers online, and in store (as in go to the meetings) nah fail on this too many reasons to list
→ tried to replicate taking pictures like beginning... didn't stick to it
→ spend a ZILLION on trainers, coaches and systems... worked for a time... but dang this can break the bank
→ bought other proteins and joined every facebook accountability group in existence to try and replicate above mentioned coaching and nah
→ threw it all to the wind and this has been a big ole stinking turd!
so here I sit this morning 
I started this blog at 200 got to as low as 136
up to 181
down to 148
back now at 166
I am not doing so great and a gal mentioned to me the other day, she missed my blogs 
so here I am 
what's the answer to this weight dilemma? 
keto? low carb? WWers? Shake system? a mix of all? nothing? everything? 
a rubber room? 
I know the goal... this ↓
so let's try an old approach 🤔
pictures of my food ... just TODAY and see how it goes.... 
at this point I am not making any grand plan and look like an idiot
so let's recap 
166.8 ... this is B.A.D 
today will be picture day 
and let's see where this blog takes me... 
maybe it will save me (again) 
or maybe it won't (again) 

let's see where this goes..... 

tootles and see ya tomorrow with some pictures and a new (hopefully) smaller number 

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