Friday, May 10, 2019

onto day #4

this is gonna be quick 
I woke up late, have to put my food together (it's already all tracked) 
and do the treadmill 
so down and dirty
love to add this to a meal  
calories aren't too bad  
I didn't tease them, they got a treat  
I love this company  
the smartcake's are amazing! 
viola! ham ans cheese 
may have had two 😉
been adding this to my water, so good  
1/4 a rice bowl, unlimited veggies and a veggie burger 
and with that peanut sauce

gotta run 

Thursday, May 9, 2019

its the weirdest thing

I don't have any fun snappy pictures today 
I will take some today 
what I do have is a weird all of a sudden SHIFT 

Like something in me flipped 
I was watching an Instagram gal I follow and she talked about goals 
and breaking them down into manageable goals 
big goal → final destination 
clothing goal/ or could be a pamper myself goal 🤷...this one not sure if she said or I added this 
Then she talked about those changing numbers goals → you know 170-160-150-140-130 
then she broke it down more into the skinny side of the numbers... like going from 160 to 150 make it a goal to get to 165! so you can be on the "skinny side" 

this really for some reason struck me ... this is under her "my story" 

so I was thinking yesterday ... I just need to get to the "skinny side" of the 160's ... Karla don't fret about the whole picture just focus on that and I breezed through the day... that and I ate like every 2-3 hours 

Love me some old Weight Watchers points plan 
so this morning I'll hit the treadmill for 20 minutes, maybe start the ab circuit (was thinking of adding that in a few times a week) 

for now at least the gym is a No No 

I hit it too hard last week and my shoulder is messed up 
so I am laying low..... my body is reminding me of my age (dumb body!!!) 
but my mind is like nah ... you're good girl ... GO!!!! 
so shoulder pain won! Its just walking for now 
so back to the shifted mind topic 
I looked back in 2010 and it took me 6 months to get to goal from here! 
6 FREAKIN months 
so chill out girly girl! 
relax and chill 
you're gonna be on this journey for a bit 
and it's okay 
light switch moment 
(for now) 
always needing that disclaimer hahahahaah 
cause for the most part I am a hot mess 
but for TODAY.... 
food is planned, tracked and soon to be packed 
then I will journal, do some art for like an hour
treadmill... then off to work 
all my spare time is morning time 
after work I am like a zombie and ready for bed 
so tootles my peeperoos 
see y'all tomorrow 

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

yes I am back again today

wowsa 2 days in a row!!! shocker 😂
coffee... this is/has been a mess 
unsweetened almond milk? 
coffee mate? 
SF coffee mat? 
half and half? 
so over all this indecision... it's exhausting  
so since I am (maybe) back to bloggins meet my new babies! 
Milo (girl, left) and Otis (boy, right) 
brother and sister born 12/1/18
absolute light of my life 💕
 went out to breakfast, egg whites with onions and mushrooms, 
tomatoes not hash browns, plain wheat toast 
water, water and more water also  
snack yum  
lunch some kind of low carb 50 calorie tortilla
 velveeta, ham, pickle and rice cake "chips"  
 blackberries, sweetener and FF cool whip 
pudgy face, 15 calorie popsicle  
 veggies, marg and parm cheese 
I am a HUGE journaler, this is my fitness journal... 
I will be (I am sure) posting a lot about this  
 this morning's entry 
and the plan for today 
yah know... some thoughts here:   this may not be the "perfect clean food" and I hesitated to post for fear of imagined? judgement but yah know... phooey... I am doing what works for me... first goal... skinny side of 160's (under 165) long term goal ... 139 by 12/31/19... in looking at 2010 it took me 6-7 months to go from 166 to 139 so.... hunker down Karla and enjoy the ride 😂 ... my shoulder bothers me when I do upper body and last week doing pushups almost got me to go to Kaiser for pain shooting down my arm... so hello again treadmill 
not perfect? but perfectly imperfect 
love 💗 peace ☮ 

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

getting fat that's where!!

You know how a blogger disappears and you wonder.... where did they go? 
and you wonder.... did they gain their weight back? 
well... to end the suspense ... yes I am a fatty now 
so let's recap...
→ weight watchers on my own... big winner
→ calorie counting ... became obsessed.. got way way thin and couldn't sustain it
→ started the shake system.... did good and lost the weight, but dang I don't want to live like this forever
→ joined weight watchers online, and in store (as in go to the meetings) nah fail on this too many reasons to list
→ tried to replicate taking pictures like beginning... didn't stick to it
→ spend a ZILLION on trainers, coaches and systems... worked for a time... but dang this can break the bank
→ bought other proteins and joined every facebook accountability group in existence to try and replicate above mentioned coaching and nah
→ threw it all to the wind and this has been a big ole stinking turd!
so here I sit this morning 
I started this blog at 200 got to as low as 136
up to 181
down to 148
back now at 166
I am not doing so great and a gal mentioned to me the other day, she missed my blogs 
so here I am 
what's the answer to this weight dilemma? 
keto? low carb? WWers? Shake system? a mix of all? nothing? everything? 
a rubber room? 
I know the goal... this ↓
so let's try an old approach 🤔
pictures of my food ... just TODAY and see how it goes.... 
at this point I am not making any grand plan and look like an idiot
so let's recap 
166.8 ... this is B.A.D 
today will be picture day 
and let's see where this blog takes me... 
maybe it will save me (again) 
or maybe it won't (again) 

let's see where this goes..... 

tootles and see ya tomorrow with some pictures and a new (hopefully) smaller number 

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